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About: we stayed at home to write, to consolidate our outstretched selves

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prospects of familial love on the other side of the tundra, on the other side of march. we are strangers to each city, he and i, home within ourselves, but the open graces of rolling hillscapes and the aged faces of those we left behind will always be enough to inspire me further 

things you learn when moving to a new province (three)
  • a city without great culture is not a great city 
  • urban sprawl not only impacts landscapes, but friendships, love, interests 
  • when it comes to amiable personalities, there is a giant difference between flat friendliness, and genuine good nature
  • subarctic freezes sink deeper than just the skin, they hit the bone, the nerves, the soul
  • pregnancy scares are even more terrifying when you are but two people, isolated in prairie wasteland
  • you cling to every good, small thing that comes your way. 
rejecting the radical

Recently I have developed an interest in feminist discourse and have tried to break down my negative opinions of it to better myself and the discussions I have with feminist friends. I have researched a lot of early feminist work, feminist work within my own discipline of anthropology, and contemporary articles, blogs, and texts that have something to say about feminism. And the more I read, the more I hate it. 

The discipline has become a radicalized and close-minded form of its older self, an aggressive variant of a discussion that could have many merits to both men and women. I don’t believe that feminism is poison, I don’t think that the leaders of today’s feminist movements are horrible people or that they don’t have something important to say. But I do think their way of engaging with the general public is not working, and I am angered by the exclusivity of thought. Even as a women, I feel that my thoughts and attempts to stretch the ideas of feminism in discussions with men are completely rejected, because I am either not well-read in feminist theory, or because I am siding with the patriarchy. It feels that the narratives put forward today are not striving for an equality, but putting men and their thoughts down because it can’t fit in with our experiences as women. It is exactly this sort of thinking that is limiting and completely unacceptable - in both academic and every-day circles. 

My view on these limitations is not limited to strictly the feminist discipline. As a new masters student, I have recently undergone a huge paradigm shift in how I think about the separation of studies into these sorts of labels. To put this into perspective, bear with me while I explain the background of this: I have always prided myself in being an empirical scientist, believed that the answers to human evolution and to many other questions were embedded in genetics, and that we could observe the truth through an objective analysis. I now believe that this is complete bullshit. I still value genetic analysis, but I have come to realize that the scientific approach is a subjective, culturally biased experience that has been strengthened by prosthetic technologies; the reliance on quantitative data is not objective, our own human agency (and pride) can lead us to tweak the numbers to suit our hypotheses. Science is flawed, and our ability to use it when answering a research question would only be bolstered by looking at the social sciences, the arts, and what ever other realms of academia may intrigue and aid us.

I would argue that academic thought is going to undergo a similar paradigm shift within the next few decades. Science has been on the forefront of research initiatives in the West for a great long time, and this must change. I understand its importance, but it is being manipulated by corporations and industries that seek to validate their own existence instead of promoting the growth of human knowledge. To counteract this, we can be more reflexive as scientists and incorporate discourses that aren’t familiar to us - challenge ourselves to see our own cultural baggage and break down the barriers between science, psychology, anthropology, English, sociology, and so forth. Work together to create a deepened understanding of what it means to be human, or whatever specific question you have in mind. 

What does this have to do with feminism? I think that the radicalization of the discipline in recent years is in complete opposition to the way academic thought is beginning to travel towards. I challenge feminists to accept their limitations and seek to understand and participate in other discussions. I challenge feminists to listen to men for more than a minute before completely shutting them out of the conversation. I challenge every student reading this to break down their academic barriers and pick up a book from a realm of literature that doesn’t make you feel comfortable. Let’s work on holistic conclusions that are explicitly inclusive and self-aware - regardless of our own contextual backgrounds. Thank you for listening. 

until newborn, unknown

the pounding crimson
rushes like a dive
beats on until every river is flooded
every noise is flushed
every pore drips salt

senseless
your fists bite within pockets
urge you
lull until newborn, unknown
beast you become

clear as a blade
your will never locked eyes - 
smash and crumble
absolve until dust
though never undo

toes trickle in aftermath
as if great societies never stood
and all was always rubble and bone




things you learn when moving to a new province (part 2)
  • accepting a non-furnished apartment because you’re on a budget inevitably means that you’ll meet some strange basement-dwellers from the internet when seeking out furniture
  • how not to get mugged: face down, knife in pocket
  • the term “landlocked” becomes more important: expensive produce, muddy streams, and abrasive prairie winds
  • you will always find new people to welcome you into their worlds
things i don’t understand

i was under the impression that backpacking through europe was something you did off the grid, only popping your head up when you managed to crawl into an internet cafe for a couple of hours. 

i don’t want to see twitter updates of every single cafe you’ve been to today. there are a lot of cafes in europe.

a lifetime of infinite firsts
how my relationship advice differs between genders

females: consoling, empowering, empathetic

males: a huge kick in the ass.

not sure how i feel about this realization, especially in how it contributes to ongoing gender roles and social norms… 

(via crookedindifference)

things you learn when moving to new provinces (part one)
  • when driving isn’t an option, life quickly becomes something you need to pack up in one piece of checked luggage, a carry-on, and a personal item
  • even temporary breakups with your bookshelf are painful
  • you will never give yourself enough time to pack
  • you will never be able to say goodbye to everyone that wants to say goodbye
  • you are not a terrible person for not saying goodbye to everyone that wants to say goodbye
  • it is quite unwise to book all outstanding doctor/dentist/hair (etc) appointments on the same week
  • the ones you love the most are the ones you will fight the hardest to see, even if it’s for ten minutes in the middle of the night - that one hug makes every insane effort to get to it completely worth it.
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